Living Fearlessly in 2017
I had the opportunity to do a photo-shoot with Lennox Bishop, an incredible photographer here in Seattle. We went to school together and I always saw her as this well-known, loved soul who humbly lived with authenticity, courage, and ownership of her life. I was surprised after we talked that she had the same fears I struggle with as a creative. We struggled owning the fact that we are artists in our own right while still figuring life out. But we all often deny ourselves of expressing our gifts due to rejection or not being taken seriously. Therefore we live our lives solely as students, housewives, mothers, single, or any other one title to obtain an achievable idea of a "safe and easy" life.
Is it just me who feels as if they aren't really living our lives? We are constantly told what career paths to take, who to identify as, where to live, and frankly how to exist in this world. If we we would free ourselves from the chained opinions of our negative, I mean realistic parents, or the doubtful attitudes from our crappy friends then we would be free to think and live the way we want to. Although we had no choice in our start in this world, one thing we do have control over is our mind: our irreplaceable, most valuable, and ignored resource.
For someone who is proudly obsessed with the self-help and spirituality sections in Barnes & Noble, I have placed down several books that housed this question: What would you do if other people's opinions didn't matter? I hated that question because it made me admit that I am as equally obsessed with other people's opinions about my life, my body, my mind, my words, and my actions. I am one of those people relies on the validation from others to feel worthy in this world; and to be frank, I'm fucking sick of it.
Some of you may not know this but I have been blogging for several years, six if we're being honest. To be fair...I hid my blog and YouTube channel(s) for 4/6 years because it wasn't cool in 2010. I want to go hide in my down-comforter and pretend like I never admitted that on the internet because I feel as if I have NOTHING to show for it. Disclaimer: If you measure a "successful" blogger by the amount of followers, views, haters, projects, free shit, brand deals, etc. they receive, then I am a super unsuccessful blogger. But honestly... I'm happy I endured this long ride of quitting, re-branding, falling off, and starting over because I finally feel confident in owning that I want to live fearless and pursue the "blogging" industry.
I know this is vague and may be confusing but I'm sharing this to say, I am going to embrace my journey in this life. We are going to fail, embarrass ourselves, and maybe even say things we shouldn't have said. However, taking risks that align with your purpose are so important than "looking" perfect or working a job that you absolutely can't stand.
You can always find work, even if it's mowing 30 lawns a week until you land the perfect a entry role at that start-up company you've seen in the city. But you have one life you to pursue your boldest dreams. I'm in a place where I'm training my mind to turn my failures into stepping stones. To turn embarrassing moments into humbling reminders not to take myself so seriously. I will fearlessly pursue my complex and wild dreams with or without your unasked belief in me. So, what are you going to do with your one chance to live fearlessly?